Si Ara at Renzo ay tropa ko. Si Ara at Renzo ay magjowaers. Si Ara at Renzo ay lagi kong kinaiiritahan.

Chareng hahhahaha de kasi naghaharutan yun lagi sa harap ko eh. Yung harutan na nakakairita. Minsan magtatalo yun sa kung sino magdadala ng bag ni Ara, pinagpipilitan ni Renzo na dalhin niya tapos ayaw ni Ara. Tas magtatalo sila at eepal ako “Bigay mo na yang bag mo kay Renzo tas dalhin mo tong bag ko.” Minsan sa kung sino nang gagastos sa pagkain nila. Gusto nila pareho na sila magbabayad tas kingina magtatalo. Iaabot ni Renzo kay Ara yung pera tas di tatanggapin ni Ara tas ipipilit ni Renzo at eepal na naman ako “Akin na yan. Ako na lang gagastos nyan. Bahala kayo jan.” Basta yung mga ganyan. Badtrip. Buti na lang mahal ko sila hays.

long-distance friendships are terrible because you can’t meet up with them whenever you want and hang out on any given day which is why when i’m president i’m relocating the entire human population into a 10,000,000 story skyscraper that also acts as a bridge from earth to the moon which comes with the added benefit of swinging the moon around like a fucking mace, god damn it’s gonna look so cool. what was i talking about

Madalas ako maiyak sa mga binabasa ko tapos mamaga byutipul eyes ko at magtataka nanay ko, syempre sinasabi ko naiyak ako sa binabasa ko. Nasanay na sila dun. Kaya minsan, kahit iba na yung iniiyakan ko, yun pa rin iniisip nila. Kahit nasasaktan talaga ko, kahit sobrang lungkot ko talaga nun kaya ako naiiyak. Yes ang dramarama sa telebabad

Last week ata yun, nung mga panahong binabasa ko yung Allegiant. Nakasakay ako sa jeep pa-PUP tapos sa bandang Legarda may pumarang mama kaso hindi huminto yung jeep na sinasakyan ko kaya hinabol niya tapos saka kumapit. And in my mind, I’m all like “Nakanangs kuya dumu-dauntless lang.” Tapos pagsakay niya saka tumigil yung jeep. How joker! Charengs. Okay kwento ko sa tortol.

He claimed to have fallen for a girl who never failed to make him laugh. Then he broke her heart and made her cry. And instead of cracking jokes, her voice cracks all the time now, always on the verge of crying.

The sad thing is, people only remember the ones they loved so hard it broke them to pieces and the loves so powerful it set them on fire until all that was left of them were ashes. Those are the kinds of love they remember in ten, maybe twenty, years, along with the lover it came with. When they look back to all the people they let into their lives, they won’t remember people like me, people they tried to love but ended up burning to the ground, instead. They won’t remember the half-felt I love yous, born out of habit rather than love. I’m just so used to loving you, I don’t think there’s anything else isn’t a reason worth remembering. It doesn’t matter if they’re the fire that burns down your entire house because you’re only a flicker to them.

And it’s a tragedy, that people like me will have to watch our loves breathe in the ashes burned by someone else.

Darling, whatever happens, know that I am and will always be in love with you and that I have no intention to stop. But, tomorrow morning, you will wake up and roll over to my side of the bed, it will be empty. You will open your eyes and I will be nowhere in sight. Not in the chair across the bed nor in the sound of the shower hitting the floor nor by the window were I always used to be. I, however, will be in the silence filling the room, in the wrinkles on the sheet, in the stain on the carpet floor. There, but not really. Gone, but not really. My scent on your sheets will linger but I will not.

You will walk out the door, into the kitchen where you think I’ll be. But you’re wrong, like so many times, you’re wrong. There will only be one mug on the counter, only enough coffee brewing for you. This should be the sign. By now, you should know what did and will happen, but you will not. Because you never liked reading signs. You will think I must have gone to the grocery, instead, to buy whatever it is you forgot to. You will find my favorite mug where it has always been. It will be there but I will not. Do not wait for me.

A few more hours, and what should have been a grocery trip, later, you will finally decide to look for me yourself. You will reach for your car keys, on the end table where it has always been, and notice a torn up paper under it. "I can’t do this anymore." That is when it will all hit you straight in the gut, and you will want to double over in pain. How could you not have seen this coming, you will think. And after it all subsides - the initial shock, the pain, the confusion - you will know, that that piece of paper will be one of the only things I will leave you with, along with the words scrawled on it. It will say what I can not.

It will stay but I will not. Do not look for me.

Hi good evening. Alam nyo ba (hindi) na nagpaplantsa ako… ng sintas. Ang arte nung tatlong tuldok amp hahhaha okay.

Anonymous SENT: Anong apps po yung sa library mo? Yung sa pdf mo po sa phone mo.

epub yun eh. aldiko.

Nung isang araw pinapanuod ko yung trailer ng Fifty Shades of Grey tapos nakita ng nanay ko. Sabi, “Wag mo panuorin yan. Pang adult yan.” Tapos sabi ko “17 na kaya ako saka nabasa ko nga to eh.” Gusto ko pa nga sana sabihin na mas matinde pa imagination ko kesa sa movie hahahahhaha kaso baka malagot ako non so… hahhaha.

Grabe grabe talaga. Binasa ko ‘to kagabi mga 11:30 ganun tapos natapos ko ng 2AM. Pinagsisihan ko na binasa ko ng ganung oras kasi mas masakit. Chareng. De, iniyakan ko kasi ‘to ng so many many swears. Tas di ako agad makatulog kasi… kasi ang sakit talaga. Sa unahan ng copy ko may nakalagay na “And if anyone asks how it ends, just LIE” kaya naintriga ko talaga sa ending kinginaaaaa sobrang unexpected tangina talaga ang sakit sa puso. Basahin niyo rin sige na shet talaga sobra hays. Sobrang bigat nito sa puso kaya easy read muna isusunod ko. Yung love story lang na magaan. Kailangan ko muna mag move on chareng grabe talaga. Hays. Hinuhulaan ko kung anong mangyayari eh pero sobrang mali ng hula ko. Putangina talaga namamaga mata ko dahil dito shet.

Sana mag August 4 na nang umalis na tong ate ko dito sa bahay. Nagdorm na sya wag na sya umuwi. Nakakainis.

To hell with them. Nothing hurts if you don’t let it.
— Ernest Hemingway
Anonymous SENT: suggest books? :)

malunod ka sige galing pa ‘to sa listahan ko nung high school tapos yung iba yung mga naalala ko now lang hays yung may huhu yung iniyakan ko hays

  1. Empty by K.M. Walton (the huhuest)
  2. We Were Liars by E. Lockhart (huhu)
  3. Twenty Boy Summer by Sarah Ockler (huhu)
  4. Sing Me to Sleep by Angela Morrison (huhu)
  5. Epic Fail by Claire Lazebnik
  6. Summer Sisters by Judy Blume (huhu)
  7. Hate List by Jennifer Brown (huhu)
  8. Hold Still by Nina LaCour (huhu)
  9. Across The Universe Trilogy by Beth Revis
  10. One Night That Changed Everything by Lauren Barnholdt
  11. Freefall by Mindi Scott
  12. Dash and Lily’s Book of Dares by Rachel Cohn and David Levithan
  13. My Name is Memory by Ann Brashares
  14. Where I Belong by Gwendolyn Heasley
  15. Past Perfect by Leila Sales
  16. Th1rteen R3asons Why by Jay Asher (huhu)
  17. Summer Trilogy by Jenny Han 
  18. The Lonely Hearts Club by Elizabeth Eulberg
  19. Not That Kind of Girl by Siobhan Vivian
  20. Ten Things We Did by Sarah Mlynowski
  21. Shut Out by Kody Keplinger 
  22. The Boyfriend Thief by Shana Norris
  23. Thoughtless Trilogy by S.C Stephens
  24. When It Happens by Susane Colasanti
  25. Lola and the Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins
  26. Tris and Izzie by Mette Ivie Harrison
  27. A Match Made in High School by Kristin Walker
  28. Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins
  29. Flat-Out Love by Jessica Park 
  30. The Boys Next Door by Jennifer Echols
  31. The Ex Games by Jennifer Echols
  32. Reason to Breathe by Rebecca Donovan (huhu)
  33. Perfect You by Elizabeth Scott
  34. Black Painted Fingernails by Steven Herrick
  35. Broken Soup by Jenny Valentine
  36. Playing Dirty by Susan Andersen
  37. Cold Water by Annmarie McQueen
  38. Saving June by Hannah Harrington
  39. Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell 
  40. That Boy by Jillian Dodd
  41. So Much Closer by Susane Colasanti
  42. Saving June by Hannah Harrington
  43. A Little Less Girl by Tess Oliver (medyo huhu)
  44. The Duff by Kody Keplinger
  45. Two- way Street by Lauren Barnholdt
  46. Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour by Morgan Matson
  47. The Summer of Skinny Dipping by Amanda Howells (huhu)
  48. Invincible Summer by Hannah Moskowitz (huhu)
  49. Guitar Girl by Sarra Manning 
  50. Heart On A Chain by Cindy C. Bennett (huhu)
  51. Rock and a Hard Place by Angie Stanton (huhu)
  52. Cracked Up To Be by Courtney Summers (huhu)
  53. Forbidden by Tabitha Suzuma (huhu)
  54. Unwritten Rules by M.A. Stacie
  55. This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen
  56. Bitter End by Jennifer Brown
  57. Future of Us by Jay Asher & Carolyn Mackler
  58. Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver 
  59. Callum and Harper by Fisher Amelie
  60. Blue Sky Days by Marie Landry (huhu)
  61. The Fine Art of Truth and Dare by Melissa Jensen
  62. Almost by Anne Elliot (huhu)
  63. Wishing For Someday Soon by Tiffany King
  64. The Maze Runner Trilogy by James Dashner